Ever get that sudden "realization" thing going on?
It's when something "clicks", and you just know how it works. The best example I can think of is when you look at those pitures that require you to stare really close and you eventually move it away until you see some sort of picture. Something about brain activity increasing and yada yada
well....I guess it's time something changed.
Street Fighter 4. It started back early in 2009 when uni just started and I played at JB. from there it become a hobby until some guy beat me hard at Avcon - when it became a passion.
Passion to be the top player... in Adelaide anyway...
Ever since then I've just played.. and played and played.
2 years later I'm still playing .. but I ask myself what happens now?
It's funny. SF4 has become part of my identity. It was good for a while but as time goes by, you grow older and mature and you realise It's just a game and ... there's so much more to life.
What am I trying to say?
I'm going to stop playing street fighter 4 competitively and altogether. There's too much to think about always staying on top and although it sounds stupid and everything hear me out.
Stopping it - it's sort of like losing a part of your identity, a part of you.
Everyone knows me for sf4 and well.. sure that's randy dandy but .... then what.
Stop and assess the more important aspects in life perhaps...
So what that means is I also need to find a new hobby/thing to keep me busy. That could be anything you want it to be. ;)
Also I need to really work on uni. It's no where near the potential I could be. If I put as much effort as I did in sf4 for uni, I'm pretty sure I'd get another form of respect.
SF4 isn't exactly the best thing to use to impress any err girls. Thanks for the tip older vanta.
"In order to expand your horizons, you first need to lose sight of the shore"
Something like that. Letting go of ssf4 and taking on something different.
It's going to be hard at first, the urges to get back into something your good at... but It's the only way to grow up.
Training for this weeks SF4 tournament online, I've never felt so on top of my game. It's asif everything I've learnt has come together and just paved a way to.. victory? hahah.
It will be my last fight for a very very long time. Quit while you're on top, so you can leave the legacy behind for everyone to talk about ..
ps. Le. CHANGE YOUR BLOGGER TEMPLATE!!
8 month rewind
Oh wow. It's been almost 8 months since my Last post. Time just flies doesn't it...?
Soo many things have happened... just an incredibly quick recount
Friends coming and going
Breakups and not so many make ups
Not doing anything for valentines :P
Uni
Tournaments
Bit of work
And just life in general can be a bit frustrating at times.
As of now I'm my 3rd week of my 1st placement. And to be absolutely honest: it's alright... I mean, because I'm still nooby at what I do, so I don't feel as comfortable and theres some degree of pressure to look good. Like I'd always hear about "the student at modbury is so good, learns so fast" and about other students doing pretty well whilst I'm only doing average if not, a bit slow. I guess If I really focused 120% I could learn faster , but with life, there are just so many more distractions you need to clear first...
Anyways Life, for me, in general really doesn't revolve much..
Uni : Exams, placement, study, ugh
Bit of gaming : Tournament practice, SF , bit of dota everynow and then
Social Life : different groups of people... Med rads, unisa, dota, Norwood crew, street fighter ..
It's a bit hard to balance at times, I mean Most people have work commitments on top of that but at least your kept busy and getting monies too!
Random topic of the day:
Having Long curly hair...can be hit or miss with some people. I mean for me, It just adds another layer of individuality, and if I'm not different enough ( I play GUY from sff4 for crying out loud, who does that let alone play sf at a competative level ) . My hair dressor loves my curly hair and thinks it makes me look good in a different way. So I ask a girl and she's like, vanta, get a frikking haircut. So I did. It's pretty short and you can see semi curls but it's not enough to be curly just yet :P.
This Friday there's going to be dinner with the medrads, which will be interesting as it isn't really much of the Asian crew, rather the non-Asians. It'd would be nice to get connected with them for networking and just to see what its like to hang around them, though theres always that cute girlthat you'd want to get closer too. Kinda hope that hair cut might get a few looks? bahha but who am I kidding..?
Then we have Paintballing the day after, which should be fun. Haven't been in a while and seeing people in pain can never not be funny. Isn't that right Le? Just hope the weather holds out, but then again, paint-balling in rain... oh snap
On top of that, There is an exam this Tuesday that I haven't even started studying for. Oh dear...
And then the following a Saturday, a street fighter tournament. I'm really considering retiring ssf4 after this , just to concentrate on other life aspects... and yet interstate friends are wanting me to attend some major ssf4 event in Melbourne during june! D:
And we have a billion birthdays alligned up this march. Povo much?
This random outburst of events that all happen in march =/
Soo many things have happened... just an incredibly quick recount
Friends coming and going
Breakups and not so many make ups
Not doing anything for valentines :P
Uni
Tournaments
Bit of work
And just life in general can be a bit frustrating at times.
As of now I'm my 3rd week of my 1st placement. And to be absolutely honest: it's alright... I mean, because I'm still nooby at what I do, so I don't feel as comfortable and theres some degree of pressure to look good. Like I'd always hear about "the student at modbury is so good, learns so fast" and about other students doing pretty well whilst I'm only doing average if not, a bit slow. I guess If I really focused 120% I could learn faster , but with life, there are just so many more distractions you need to clear first...
Anyways Life, for me, in general really doesn't revolve much..
Uni : Exams, placement, study, ugh
Bit of gaming : Tournament practice, SF , bit of dota everynow and then
Social Life : different groups of people... Med rads, unisa, dota, Norwood crew, street fighter ..
It's a bit hard to balance at times, I mean Most people have work commitments on top of that but at least your kept busy and getting monies too!
Random topic of the day:
Having Long curly hair...can be hit or miss with some people. I mean for me, It just adds another layer of individuality, and if I'm not different enough ( I play GUY from sff4 for crying out loud, who does that let alone play sf at a competative level ) . My hair dressor loves my curly hair and thinks it makes me look good in a different way. So I ask a girl and she's like, vanta, get a frikking haircut. So I did. It's pretty short and you can see semi curls but it's not enough to be curly just yet :P.
This Friday there's going to be dinner with the medrads, which will be interesting as it isn't really much of the Asian crew, rather the non-Asians. It'd would be nice to get connected with them for networking and just to see what its like to hang around them, though theres always that cute girlthat you'd want to get closer too. Kinda hope that hair cut might get a few looks? bahha but who am I kidding..?
Then we have Paintballing the day after, which should be fun. Haven't been in a while and seeing people in pain can never not be funny. Isn't that right Le? Just hope the weather holds out, but then again, paint-balling in rain... oh snap
On top of that, There is an exam this Tuesday that I haven't even started studying for. Oh dear...
And then the following a Saturday, a street fighter tournament. I'm really considering retiring ssf4 after this , just to concentrate on other life aspects... and yet interstate friends are wanting me to attend some major ssf4 event in Melbourne during june! D:
And we have a billion birthdays alligned up this march. Povo much?
This random outburst of events that all happen in march =/
wash, rinse and repeat
Heading into the 3rd week of holidays, and seems like much of the hype of "holidays" is slowly oozing away. I mean, it's a time to catch up with friends, do what you've always wanted to do, get the haircut, shape up, etc. But I ain't feeling it lol. Perhaps its' to blame my complete nocturnal nature now
Wake up at 5 pm, play , watch, talk, hang till 7 am in the morning, wash, rinse and repeat.
This habit is terrible. Now I wonder what goes on in the "daytime".
Anyway so how's your'e holidays been so far? Mine's alright to say the most, nothing real interesting going on. Everyone seems to be out doing something fun or at least productive. HAha shouldn't I be too? duno just don't feel like it at all. Like I'm not in the "mindframe" something or someone needs to slap me real hard. aih
Anyway Avcons coming up, and well theres always the street fighter tournament there. Apparently it's gona be pretty big too. got interstate players coming in wah. Was asked to defend our team Adelaide again ( we went to Sydney and came second in team battes )
Yeah it was about 2 months ago I went to Sydney to play street fighter. singly i got defeated in my pool at the 9th ranking level ( out of 25 ) which is kinda sad , considering I was so freaking close to beating the guy I lost to, it was more like I should of won that but patients got to me. Anyway that was a real highlight, I got to vs the best payer in the world, watch the best player in the world win and etc etc, see a bit of what Sydney had to offer ( in terms of food... girls? ahha damn to many of em )
The winner of the Sydney tournaments goes to las vegas in America to fight in the "world tournament" which.... as you might have guessed, is the biggest tournament in the world lol. It's actually on right now live on stream and it's up to the grand finals.
(http://www.stickam.com/evo2k)
There's been a lot of crazy stuff going on , like the best players getting eliminated etc and last years second best getting knocked out to the 9th spot!
( I don't know if I've lost you already I should probably stop )
Then theres always the soccer. Hahaa Spain or netherlands? I wouldn't have a clue.
Also I think it's time to really get back into shape. stupid exams, makes you eat like crazy, makes you lazy (physical wise ) and well that's just not the best mix. ughh but where do I start?
Is it me or everytime I talk to someone they yawn. is my topics really that boring to talk about or is my tone really that boring to listen to, or am I just really boring alltogether? HAHA on the other hand, if I talk with expression , i'm the most retarded person ever. Is there something in between? not that I know off. This is so confusing.
Gah!
Wake up at 5 pm, play , watch, talk, hang till 7 am in the morning, wash, rinse and repeat.
This habit is terrible. Now I wonder what goes on in the "daytime".
Anyway so how's your'e holidays been so far? Mine's alright to say the most, nothing real interesting going on. Everyone seems to be out doing something fun or at least productive. HAha shouldn't I be too? duno just don't feel like it at all. Like I'm not in the "mindframe" something or someone needs to slap me real hard. aih
Anyway Avcons coming up, and well theres always the street fighter tournament there. Apparently it's gona be pretty big too. got interstate players coming in wah. Was asked to defend our team Adelaide again ( we went to Sydney and came second in team battes )
Yeah it was about 2 months ago I went to Sydney to play street fighter. singly i got defeated in my pool at the 9th ranking level ( out of 25 ) which is kinda sad , considering I was so freaking close to beating the guy I lost to, it was more like I should of won that but patients got to me. Anyway that was a real highlight, I got to vs the best payer in the world, watch the best player in the world win and etc etc, see a bit of what Sydney had to offer ( in terms of food... girls? ahha damn to many of em )
The winner of the Sydney tournaments goes to las vegas in America to fight in the "world tournament" which.... as you might have guessed, is the biggest tournament in the world lol. It's actually on right now live on stream and it's up to the grand finals.
(http://www.stickam.com/evo2k)
There's been a lot of crazy stuff going on , like the best players getting eliminated etc and last years second best getting knocked out to the 9th spot!
( I don't know if I've lost you already I should probably stop )
Then theres always the soccer. Hahaa Spain or netherlands? I wouldn't have a clue.
Also I think it's time to really get back into shape. stupid exams, makes you eat like crazy, makes you lazy (physical wise ) and well that's just not the best mix. ughh but where do I start?
Is it me or everytime I talk to someone they yawn. is my topics really that boring to talk about or is my tone really that boring to listen to, or am I just really boring alltogether? HAHA on the other hand, if I talk with expression , i'm the most retarded person ever. Is there something in between? not that I know off. This is so confusing.
Gah!
6:30 am in the morning. Yeah that sounds right about bed time.
Seriously. Nowadays its sleep late , wake up late. I predict I'm going to wake up at about 2 ish. Thats what holidays does to you.
Anyway so i Finito my last exam. feeling was amazing.
Dont you just hate it, when during Swotvac, you have so much things you want to do, but as soon as it's over its : either you don't know where to start or you don't want to do it anymore.
What are your plans these holidays? Got anything special going on?
I Kinda only have one main thing I'm looking forward to : Avcon 2010. I can strut my street fighter skills off :O Better start training hard for that too...
That actually sounds quite sad... lol. Yeah I question myself why do I even still play the game? A form of recognition? finally something im half decent at?
Random topic of the day
How often or how deep do you judge people?
I mean this can be people you just met to friends.
Is it enough to notice one bad thing to judge them on all bad things of them? Do you judge them on how they dress? What they say? Their actions? their body language?
I Try not to judge but rather, look for some meaning or reasoning by their actions. Was it due to inexperience (Noobiness), Lazy, accidental? perhaps thats judging in a form anyway.
It's wierd. There are just some people you can get along really fine, but others will hate you for being yourself. Is that due to bad judgement?
Seriously. Nowadays its sleep late , wake up late. I predict I'm going to wake up at about 2 ish. Thats what holidays does to you.
Anyway so i Finito my last exam. feeling was amazing.
Dont you just hate it, when during Swotvac, you have so much things you want to do, but as soon as it's over its : either you don't know where to start or you don't want to do it anymore.
What are your plans these holidays? Got anything special going on?
I Kinda only have one main thing I'm looking forward to : Avcon 2010. I can strut my street fighter skills off :O Better start training hard for that too...
That actually sounds quite sad... lol. Yeah I question myself why do I even still play the game? A form of recognition? finally something im half decent at?
Random topic of the day
How often or how deep do you judge people?
I mean this can be people you just met to friends.
Is it enough to notice one bad thing to judge them on all bad things of them? Do you judge them on how they dress? What they say? Their actions? their body language?
I Try not to judge but rather, look for some meaning or reasoning by their actions. Was it due to inexperience (Noobiness), Lazy, accidental? perhaps thats judging in a form anyway.
It's wierd. There are just some people you can get along really fine, but others will hate you for being yourself. Is that due to bad judgement?
hmm?
It's been a while. too long perhaps. alot has happened since. Not neglecting my blog or anything but rather the all 'im to busy' excuse.
first exam is in 5 days. not really prepared for it at all -.-
Then you have anatomy. sighzor. Guess it could be worse..
I wonder how everyone going nowadays?
Update when time becomes my friend.
first exam is in 5 days. not really prepared for it at all -.-
Then you have anatomy. sighzor. Guess it could be worse..
I wonder how everyone going nowadays?
Update when time becomes my friend.
Days of our lives
What a situation I'm in. it's 3:00 am and I'm in uni at city east in the computer sweep. I'm pretty sure everyones asleep, so I'm not going to be bothered giving them a call to pick me up.
Since then alot has happened. I guess it's the reason I blog is to stop and think about how are things shaping up. hmm?
So it was about last week that I entered a street fighter 4 tournament (i suppose it could be compared to state league) and placed second. But Although that sounds good and all, there wernt many good players there (prob 5 max ) and I know quite a few more people who DIDN'T enter the tournament who are just as exceptionally good. Having said that, I dont think it was a very well representation of who was the "best" in south australia, but it's not like i'm complaining ...
So the winner, who's an absolute beast (in sf4) turns out to be a 1st year uni student studying science at adelaide. It's funny, because we are actually really good friends now ( competativeness is still there, he beats me much more then i can him ...). The Winner of the competition gets to go to sydney (FOR FREE) and compete in the national tournament. second .. doesn't get anything (which totally sucks.. oh well) but I've decided to go anyway despite paying for my own tickets : mainly because
a) I still have a chance to compete in nationals just have to start at the bottom of the list.
b) I was asked to represent team Adelaide ( team games will be there, teams consist of 3 people)
c) Support my friends entering
d) Meet the top players in australia who I vs online at home
e) Get to see the top player in the world fight off (might even take a picture with him, his celebrity status in the world of fighting games )
f) I get to go to sydney for the first time and explore for a bit
The 2 finalists of this nationals tournament THEN gets to go to las vegas and particpate in the "world" championships representing Australias best. How epic is that?
By now you've probably stop reading, because its so boring and you want to get to some interesting stuff....So I ask myself, why am I still doing this?
I'm young (19) and want to enjoy it while I still can ( even if it is sf related...)
I'm single, which means i have time on my hands and can do whaaaaaaaatever I want :) as long as it doesn't effect my studies, then Its fine. If i suck at sf so badly I always have uni to lay back on. (though im still behind lol.)
I know it sounds kinda stupid and maybe lame, but think of it like this. Do you have a hobby? is it piano? badminton? cars? chatting up girls/boys?( I suck at all those btw) lol. Exactly its something we enjoy. Imagine taking it those activities the next level, were technique, execution, knowledge and mind games form the basis of your skills ( can be applied to all of them albeit piano). This is what I'm talking about. It's deeper then you think...
But at the same time theres alot more to life then this. I am very aware of that too. It's just a phase I'm in and when I do eventually exit and move on with life ( you know.. get the job, the girlfriend :), have the car to take her out and do all sorts of crazy stuff ) then that will be the end of it. I'll have a memory to look back and say (yeah I was one of the best at sf4 in my days... hah) but until then, enjoy it while your young.
To be honest though, I'd never talk about this to anyone. Its kind of like vanta by day, street fighter by night. or something. not the person to talk about myself at all. kind of hey whats up yeah nothings going on. whod be interested in this stuff anyway.
My flight to sydney will be on the 27th, going for the weekend. it's quite exciting though, can't wait! but i'll behind a weekend on uni. argh.
This is the only place were I can be selfish and talk nonstop about myself. I rarely do it on facebook, msn or in real life. It's like the world revolves around you when you do stuff like that, and hat can be spared.
I haven't seen my friends in such a long time though... Its busy exam period though too but I wouldnt mind catching up with them.
My sf games.
Quarter Finals
Semi Finals
Finals
And to finish off a relly nice music video... Well i found it sweet and enjoyable:
Since then alot has happened. I guess it's the reason I blog is to stop and think about how are things shaping up. hmm?
So it was about last week that I entered a street fighter 4 tournament (i suppose it could be compared to state league) and placed second. But Although that sounds good and all, there wernt many good players there (prob 5 max ) and I know quite a few more people who DIDN'T enter the tournament who are just as exceptionally good. Having said that, I dont think it was a very well representation of who was the "best" in south australia, but it's not like i'm complaining ...
So the winner, who's an absolute beast (in sf4) turns out to be a 1st year uni student studying science at adelaide. It's funny, because we are actually really good friends now ( competativeness is still there, he beats me much more then i can him ...). The Winner of the competition gets to go to sydney (FOR FREE) and compete in the national tournament. second .. doesn't get anything (which totally sucks.. oh well) but I've decided to go anyway despite paying for my own tickets : mainly because
a) I still have a chance to compete in nationals just have to start at the bottom of the list.
b) I was asked to represent team Adelaide ( team games will be there, teams consist of 3 people)
c) Support my friends entering
d) Meet the top players in australia who I vs online at home
e) Get to see the top player in the world fight off (might even take a picture with him, his celebrity status in the world of fighting games )
f) I get to go to sydney for the first time and explore for a bit
The 2 finalists of this nationals tournament THEN gets to go to las vegas and particpate in the "world" championships representing Australias best. How epic is that?
By now you've probably stop reading, because its so boring and you want to get to some interesting stuff....So I ask myself, why am I still doing this?
I'm young (19) and want to enjoy it while I still can ( even if it is sf related...)
I'm single, which means i have time on my hands and can do whaaaaaaaatever I want :) as long as it doesn't effect my studies, then Its fine. If i suck at sf so badly I always have uni to lay back on. (though im still behind lol.)
I know it sounds kinda stupid and maybe lame, but think of it like this. Do you have a hobby? is it piano? badminton? cars? chatting up girls/boys?( I suck at all those btw) lol. Exactly its something we enjoy. Imagine taking it those activities the next level, were technique, execution, knowledge and mind games form the basis of your skills ( can be applied to all of them albeit piano). This is what I'm talking about. It's deeper then you think...
But at the same time theres alot more to life then this. I am very aware of that too. It's just a phase I'm in and when I do eventually exit and move on with life ( you know.. get the job, the girlfriend :), have the car to take her out and do all sorts of crazy stuff ) then that will be the end of it. I'll have a memory to look back and say (yeah I was one of the best at sf4 in my days... hah) but until then, enjoy it while your young.
To be honest though, I'd never talk about this to anyone. Its kind of like vanta by day, street fighter by night. or something. not the person to talk about myself at all. kind of hey whats up yeah nothings going on. whod be interested in this stuff anyway.
My flight to sydney will be on the 27th, going for the weekend. it's quite exciting though, can't wait! but i'll behind a weekend on uni. argh.
This is the only place were I can be selfish and talk nonstop about myself. I rarely do it on facebook, msn or in real life. It's like the world revolves around you when you do stuff like that, and hat can be spared.
I haven't seen my friends in such a long time though... Its busy exam period though too but I wouldnt mind catching up with them.
My sf games.
Quarter Finals
Semi Finals
Finals
And to finish off a relly nice music video... Well i found it sweet and enjoyable:
SSF4
Been a while since my last update. been so busy with heaps of stuff. ..
nah not really - the new street fighter locked me up in my room for quite a bit.
Anyways so whats been happening since..
Got the haircut - its the first thing everyone notices : Vanta you look different what happened?
" Oh i Shaved, that's all"
lol. However it is growing out pretty fast, so by the time you see me again, it'll be normal again so hahah :<
But yeah unis started and its getting hectic, zzzz
Birthdays past, caterings past, yada yada
Its actualy 3 am in the morning so ill elaborate on something another time.
Till then - waves
nah not really - the new street fighter locked me up in my room for quite a bit.
Anyways so whats been happening since..
Got the haircut - its the first thing everyone notices : Vanta you look different what happened?
" Oh i Shaved, that's all"
lol. However it is growing out pretty fast, so by the time you see me again, it'll be normal again so hahah :<
But yeah unis started and its getting hectic, zzzz
Birthdays past, caterings past, yada yada
Its actualy 3 am in the morning so ill elaborate on something another time.
Till then - waves
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