time flies doesnt it.

7:45 am. No sleep. The date is 8/1/2012.

Been thinking about things. today, 1 year ago, 2 years ago, 3 years ago. 4 even.
So much has changed. It's only kind of hit me that im 21.. gosh time flies

And yet it feels like it was only yesterday that I was in high school with my mates playing cards in the cafeteria tables.

Now .. everyone gone there seperate ways. The only thing keeping friends together is facebook. I wonder what it would be like if FB never existed?

but we still meet at Uni, and events. Though things aren't the same. People ave their own lives to live, they have jobs, responsibilities, new friends, new enemies...

alot has changed significantly. and yet theres this feelign that I for one, hasn't changed much at all... it's wierd.

When I was a kid. in year 4, I've always wondered what my 21 year old self would be like, how i would look, behave, have accomplished. Now that I'm living this reality, I wonder in another 10 years, what my persona brings me.

21. that age. where responsibilitiy takes full fold. that new chapter in life. late teens where the night life, going out , clubbing as a group was the way to go.
now.. we begin a new phase of our lives. where people graduate, get full time jobs, get married even. the Wedding phase. the prime. of our lives, we should be living it out the fullest and yet I feel so.. out of place.

Does anyone else talk to themselves like this or am i the only one? sometimes I think im the biggest wierdo I know

Today I went to a friends party. I didn't know him too well, but I thought I'd drop by. But then I realise how anti-social I've become. Even amongts my own friends I have trouble knowing what to talk about. Is this.. normal? am I overanalysing the situation? it's like everything i say or do is awkward. I was welcome by this girl and being stupid me i almost gave her a handshake instead of a hug. LOL serious vanta? sometimes even I think your losing it...

growing up, I never was the social type. I only had 1 or 2 friends but I was mainly alone on the early stages. But come to think of it, I Guess i should be grateful. I have a friend who's been my friend since primary and one since high school. I know some people who have no friends like these!

people.. come and go throughout life. I've met quite a few. but few will ever really understand you.



everytime I write something like these It feels better, like at least