And that's life for you.

well that didn't really make any sense but let me attempt to explain.

So when you don't have anything to do, you tend to think about things. Call me mr philosphical but I've come to notice how much has changed over the past 5 years.

You can see it on facebook, y ou can see it on people's behavior.

2 years ago facebook was active; people will be posting just about anything and everyone was having "fun" ; the friends i have who are 15-18 yo still talk about random things ; you know young love, movies, paying each other out ....... but as we grow older we stop; is that just maturity or what? I mean I've noticed many people had just stop fbing posts.

Several key reasons I have come up with:

To be judged:

Now that we are adults, are we more, in a sense, judged by every little thing we say or do? younger we could come up with an excuse saying oh his just young he'll learn... but now that that excuse is no longer "valid" do we just keep our mouths shut in the hope of continuing life without an attempt to lose any respect? to no embarrass ourselves just in case we say something stupid to make us "look" stupid?
Yes, this little trend I've noticed is as you get older, you are more quieter and reserved. Is this part of growing up?

I've noticed that as I walk in the shopping mall during a lunch break from placement in uniform, people will look at me, differently than say, if I were in casual; immediately people judge me to be "smart" since this uniform represents me going to uni, having good acedmic work and a good future; the look I call it. I feel that I am entitled to act/behave more smarter then I should be ( or are they looking at my bulkiness from the gym? o_o) so this reflects the whole fb incdent ; minimal posts and being very reserved.

Otherwise getting a partner sure has "changed" people's behavior to the more quieter zone. Not sure if it's to save people embrassment for the partner but it is painstakinly obvious that when your off the market, your not only quieter, but you... almost dissapear from the world or "social" club.

I speak from observation of course; and we've all seen it.

But this is the just the way life goes I guess; the next chapter? step in life? being part of an adult? Sometimes I feel like I'll be immature forever or something so it's a bit harder to adapt to this adulthood phase. zzzzzz


Yeah; we all have things to do, more so then others. Then why is it im the only one who feels like i have NOTHING to do? pehaps just having this idea and writing in this post is indictive of my minimal busy life.


Everyone seems to be growing up faster than I am ; and hell sure we've all heard "you grow up at your own pace" but no, thats not a good enough sxcuse


man I need a life
Wow, new layout for blogger. Wonder if people still come here..

Anyways it's been about a month since my last post

and as always alot has happened... too much

but yeah right now........ I'm in the midst of a massive transition. call it intuition because it's my last year at uni I need to know what I want to do in the immediate future

do I continue to study and take that dream job I always once looked foreward too or do I settle with what I have and be grateful I am in this position?

It's so confusing...

sigh.. decisions decisions

Do you ever wonder if the world gives you things for a reason? I'm mainly talking about .. you guessed it. girls. lol.

So I was minding my own business during my new placement when this girl.. who's 4 years out of grad or something like that comes by and, me being me, thought she was kinda pretty. with a bit of ann accent , and a smaller frame, she'd be the nice gfy type.

Finally, i had something to look foreward too for once. So we caught on and talked about random stuff , and I thought I was doing well in that regard, but as always , I find out something I don't really want to hear - she's got a bf. Whats worse, they've been one month engaged.

Plays song "wedding dress - Taeyang"

One month too late? didn't really matter anyway. But I kinda think this girl woulda had something for meifwasn't engaged or something


anyways we have a new topic we keep going back too ; weddings

being a  wedding catererr, I've seen heaps and we just go on about what works, what doesnt , what happens etc.

it's fun and all but you know that it's just conversation and nothing more

sometimes i think the world teases me or just wants me to have some sort of epiphany.

ahh man.

I'm at this really wierd stage of life right now  like it's so turbulent and crazy - do other people experience this same stuff?

like I'm not really looking foreward to anything but i don't have a reason NOt to, since i have it fairly ok at the moment...

please give me something to work with ?