So here's an idea.

Whilst your a teenager... you tend to say things that might be dismissed as you just being ignorant.
"His still young, he doesn't know yet"

I've had my fair share of being told off for saying random stuff that isn't .. appropriate? Being to cocky, saying things that isn't right? ( But that's just because ... well who's suppose to teach me? parents? spending lots of time alone doesn't help but then again... I should be picking up on stuff like this.. meh no excuses)

and yet being 20, which is considered to be quite a yucky number, because of your transition from a teen and an adult ( Not quite a teen, Not yet an adult till your 21 right?) it still feels as if I'm 18.

Talk about maturity... but they say girls mature faster guys, physically and probably mentally as well. I'll get back to that. In another post

So what do I mean by maturity? - holding responsibilities, being part of society and the social norms. There is etiquette to everything nowadays -Work, shopping, dinner with friends, being around others, toilet, uni and all of that. Even social gatherings have etiquette ( Dress formally, small talk, casual, don't be that wierd guy )

The only time when this doesn't apply is either when your with
a) You're best and closest buddies where anything can happen
b) you're other half all alone? ( I assume)

Being the odd one guy, it's OK I guess to start accepting that being normal is ... the way it's suppose to go. right?

Sometimes I'd say that isn't normal. or inappropriate. or too random. That's okay back then but being an adult... doesn't give you the best image right? Especially at a work environment, when you want to be trusted and be .. professional.

"Everything you say may and will be held against you"
- Boobs

Joke aside, As you grow up, things you say, do , act upon ... everyone's watching and judging your actions. What you say. Your responsibilities. It really is a massive world out there and it's a bit wierd.
Being 21... your an adult, and I your to act as one. perhaps Girls would find that impressive as well.

Today a friend I was talking to thought I'd have at least a few long relationships by now , just by the person I was, personality wise and she was surprise when I told her none.
She replied that it was a cute thing.

But is that really true? Ignorance doesn't get you far. not this late in life.

We are all still very much learning. All the way till we die. Some... just not as fast as others.

I still have so much to learn.

Take it one day at a time

Time flows

Started listening to some old game soundtracks....

Kind of started reminiscing about the good old days. Like 10-15 age.
How they were so carefree and easy going.
How you would play the hero, get told the story and wonder and marvel at the lands , Townes and creatures you came across and the brilliant storytelling that comes with it.

At the same time trying to reach level 100 and perfect your main characters

For you see... games back then, was our very own way of story telling. Parents didn't really read us books. I learnt how to respond to people from the dialogue o fgames.The romance side also leaves something to the imagination.

At the end of the day, it's all a fantasy and the same shit doesn't happen in real life. Games kind of twist a persons reality, and you can really only survive by knowing that a game is just a game, and something to be enjoyed - not real life.

The gaming nature has put me through into playing sf4..

Kinda of sad... but you can't escape a childhood of it.

Though as they say, as you get older, life really does get more complicated. Sometimes yu wish yu could just dive back into the past and relive the moment, forgetting everything you know and just ... just enjoying the peaceful life.

But if you dare to stop and think now, like a river that flows endlessly, time will continue to ebb away at you and you'll be left behind, with a lot to catch up toi if you ever do decide to try to live back to the present.

I probably don't make any sense

Just do it.

Life... is all about learning and experiences. Right from the time you were born till now, everything you've lived through makes you, who you are now.

Sometimes you've just got to learn to not make any excuses to justify yourself and just do it.

Don't complain. Don't bitch. Don't find reasons to justify not doing something. JUST DO IT. Shut up and do it. Don't second guess yourself. Don't question. Learn after.

Sounds like a Nike add huh?

How many times have you not done something, regretted it and bash yourself up for not doing it?

We have to look at it in the right context though. Don't do something stupid. Just do what makes common sense and is logical.

Can be appied to anything.

If it's something I've had to learn is to just do it. For the sake of yourself, and everyone else.

Words can be said easy. Actions are hard.

Actions speak louder than words.

My days of ssf4 is limited. It's exciting how I don't have to think about a game anymore but sad that I've had lots of fun experiences and it's gotten to me places like Sydney and Melbourne, but for the sake of growing older and wiser I just have to do it and let it be.

The end of a legacy

Ever get that sudden "realization" thing going on?

It's when something "clicks", and you just know how it works. The best example I can think of is when you look at those pitures that require you to stare really close and you eventually move it away until you see some sort of picture. Something about brain activity increasing and yada yada

well....I guess it's time something changed.

Street Fighter 4. It started back early in 2009 when uni just started and I played at JB. from there it become a hobby until some guy beat me hard at Avcon - when it became a passion.
Passion to be the top player... in Adelaide anyway...

Ever since then I've just played.. and played and played.
2 years later I'm still playing .. but I ask myself what happens now?
It's funny. SF4 has become part of my identity. It was good for a while but as time goes by, you grow older and mature and you realise It's just a game and ... there's so much more to life.

What am I trying to say?

I'm going to stop playing street fighter 4 competitively and altogether. There's too much to think about always staying on top and although it sounds stupid and everything hear me out.

Stopping it - it's sort of like losing a part of your identity, a part of you.
Everyone knows me for sf4 and well.. sure that's randy dandy but .... then what.

Stop and assess the more important aspects in life perhaps...

So what that means is I also need to find a new hobby/thing to keep me busy. That could be anything you want it to be. ;)

Also I need to really work on uni. It's no where near the potential I could be. If I put as much effort as I did in sf4 for uni, I'm pretty sure I'd get another form of respect.

SF4 isn't exactly the best thing to use to impress any err girls. Thanks for the tip older vanta.

"In order to expand your horizons, you first need to lose sight of the shore"

Something like that. Letting go of ssf4 and taking on something different.

It's going to be hard at first, the urges to get back into something your good at... but It's the only way to grow up.

Training for this weeks SF4 tournament online, I've never felt so on top of my game. It's asif everything I've learnt has come together and just paved a way to.. victory? hahah.

It will be my last fight for a very very long time. Quit while you're on top, so you can leave the legacy behind for everyone to talk about ..


8 month rewind

Oh wow. It's been almost 8 months since my Last post. Time just flies doesn't it...?

Soo many things have happened... just an incredibly quick recount

Friends coming and going
Breakups and not so many make ups
Not doing anything for valentines :P
Bit of work
And just life in general can be a bit frustrating at times.

As of now I'm my 3rd week of my 1st placement. And to be absolutely honest: it's alright... I mean, because I'm still nooby at what I do, so I don't feel as comfortable and theres some degree of pressure to look good. Like I'd always hear about "the student at modbury is so good, learns so fast" and about other students doing pretty well whilst I'm only doing average if not, a bit slow. I guess If I really focused 120% I could learn faster , but with life, there are just so many more distractions you need to clear first...

Anyways Life, for me, in general really doesn't revolve much..

Uni : Exams, placement, study, ugh
Bit of gaming : Tournament practice, SF , bit of dota everynow and then
Social Life : different groups of people... Med rads, unisa, dota, Norwood crew, street fighter ..
It's a bit hard to balance at times, I mean Most people have work commitments on top of that but at least your kept busy and getting monies too!

Random topic of the day:

Having Long curly hair...can be hit or miss with some people. I mean for me, It just adds another layer of individuality, and if I'm not different enough ( I play GUY from sff4 for crying out loud, who does that let alone play sf at a competative level ) . My hair dressor loves my curly hair and thinks it makes me look good in a different way. So I ask a girl and she's like, vanta, get a frikking haircut. So I did. It's pretty short and you can see semi curls but it's not enough to be curly just yet :P.

This Friday there's going to be dinner with the medrads, which will be interesting as it isn't really much of the Asian crew, rather the non-Asians. It'd would be nice to get connected with them for networking and just to see what its like to hang around them, though theres always that cute girlthat you'd want to get closer too. Kinda hope that hair cut might get a few looks? bahha but who am I kidding..?

Then we have Paintballing the day after, which should be fun. Haven't been in a while and seeing people in pain can never not be funny. Isn't that right Le? Just hope the weather holds out, but then again, paint-balling in rain... oh snap

On top of that, There is an exam this Tuesday that I haven't even started studying for. Oh dear...

And then the following a Saturday, a street fighter tournament. I'm really considering retiring ssf4 after this , just to concentrate on other life aspects... and yet interstate friends are wanting me to attend some major ssf4 event in Melbourne during june! D:

And we have a billion birthdays alligned up this march. Povo much?

This random outburst of events that all happen in march =/