Shit happens

I guess we've all had our fair share of bad days. maybe some more than others. but just for today it honestly feels like... the entire world is against you. It's like everything you do turns into a negative consequence. like bad Karma has accumulated so heavily from somewhere and it's ready to dump a crap load onto you.

Life isn't fair.

and yet why does it continue to keep feeling things are never going to get better? it's like a dark limitless void.

I pray sometimes that one day things will just reverse and get better.. and yet there are so many reports of saying "it's up to you to make up your life" kind of quotes. I don't know were to begin...

As cliche as it sounds .. sometimes i just want to go to a lone field and scream to the top of my lungs. yes,This is such a depressing post. but sometimes I don't even know what to wake up to anymore. I ask myself everyday.. now. ............

I am honestly just lost for words right now..

time flies doesnt it.

7:45 am. No sleep. The date is 8/1/2012.

Been thinking about things. today, 1 year ago, 2 years ago, 3 years ago. 4 even.
So much has changed. It's only kind of hit me that im 21.. gosh time flies

And yet it feels like it was only yesterday that I was in high school with my mates playing cards in the cafeteria tables.

Now .. everyone gone there seperate ways. The only thing keeping friends together is facebook. I wonder what it would be like if FB never existed?

but we still meet at Uni, and events. Though things aren't the same. People ave their own lives to live, they have jobs, responsibilities, new friends, new enemies...

alot has changed significantly. and yet theres this feelign that I for one, hasn't changed much at all... it's wierd.

When I was a kid. in year 4, I've always wondered what my 21 year old self would be like, how i would look, behave, have accomplished. Now that I'm living this reality, I wonder in another 10 years, what my persona brings me.

21. that age. where responsibilitiy takes full fold. that new chapter in life. late teens where the night life, going out , clubbing as a group was the way to go.
now.. we begin a new phase of our lives. where people graduate, get full time jobs, get married even. the Wedding phase. the prime. of our lives, we should be living it out the fullest and yet I feel so.. out of place.

Does anyone else talk to themselves like this or am i the only one? sometimes I think im the biggest wierdo I know

Today I went to a friends party. I didn't know him too well, but I thought I'd drop by. But then I realise how anti-social I've become. Even amongts my own friends I have trouble knowing what to talk about. Is this.. normal? am I overanalysing the situation? it's like everything i say or do is awkward. I was welcome by this girl and being stupid me i almost gave her a handshake instead of a hug. LOL serious vanta? sometimes even I think your losing it...

growing up, I never was the social type. I only had 1 or 2 friends but I was mainly alone on the early stages. But come to think of it, I Guess i should be grateful. I have a friend who's been my friend since primary and one since high school. I know some people who have no friends like these!

people.. come and go throughout life. I've met quite a few. but few will ever really understand you.

everytime I write something like these It feels better, like at least
Lets talk about something worth talking about ey? Relationships.

Ok so I haven't been in one, YET so my point may or may not be valid, But there's something to really bothers me when I see others in a relationship do ;

When a guy is clearly in a relationship but flirts the crap out with other girls, when she isn't around.

I mean it could very well be all fun and a bit of games, but there is a clear-well define line that you can't cross and some people run across with no regard whatsoever.

A friend of mine, who went into one last year (theyve been togather for a year now) I believe, does it right.

you could say he is the typical nice boy who doesn't really talk to many girls. He finally gets the gf and bam. I literally never see him again. He is THAT devoted to her. he helps out her dad, helps out her family, bring her to family gatherings, and pretty much reserves everything for her. I don't think i've seen him again.

But I respect that. because Thats how a boyfriend should be like. ( he seemed quite family orientated).

On the other hand, a guy with a gf who is flirting the crap out other girls, makes me.. ugh. Maybe it's because he should no better to be (cheating but less severe) on other girl. wtf?
you have a girl man, rock her world already!

it makes me one to punch them in the face and tell them to go home and be a family man